(Title translation: It hurts, so what can I do?)
A friend of mine suggested I write down whatever is in my mind… in this blog… and I think it feels good, knowing that somehow friends who are not really close to me suggest things that are really useful for my sake. I love my friends.
It changes, the way I feel about my friends when I know that one of them hurts my feelings, without even telling me, or subconsciously, they don’t know they’ve hurt me until they find out from me personally that they did! It can’t be helped. A friend of mine did that. She could have told me that she loved him, only she didn’t. She told me she doesn’t intend to enter into a relationship with which she knows that somewhere somehow somebody would be hurt but she did! And I don’t really know what’s wrong with me but I shouldn’t really be affected by this but I am and it hurts to think about it but I can’t help it.
But wait, there’s more! I’ve been confiding to the Lord that I’ve been thinking about this certain “thing” and that said to him I don’t want to think about “it” anymore. It’s getting out of hand! It’s a stupid “thing” to think about and I wanted to tell the Lord that I don’t want to think about “it” anymore… π¦
Please, ayoko na. No more, please. No more…