I’ve just realized that the end is really here. And I mean it already came last week! I don’t know when or where I should start saying goodbye, but I guess, or suppose I have to. It’s really hard once you’re in that crucial position where in you won’t know if you’re going to cry or laugh or be mad or be lonely.

Okay, so what I just said is a little confusing.

And yeah, it’s kinda hard to say goodbye to the people you’re just starting to love, and now you have to let go.

I think it’s bogus to say that the end is coming, so this time, I won’t say it. Well, there are certain things that needs to be stopped, or paused for a while, because we have to venture out into another path…

As you know, the term is coming to an end. I have a lot of things to pass this Dec. 15. And I haven’t done anything yet! Well, I suppose I should begin later or tomorrow evening, so my mind is set up on… that!

What else is ending? I suppose I could say my Espian experience is ending. My last day would be the 18th, but I’m not sure about that yet, of course. Things change over time, after all. My last class-by-class meeting would officially be over on the 14th. Actually, tomorrow should have been the last but I love my students so much, I’ll have to extend the gratitude! And I have to give something to St. Catherine for always helping me out. I suppose I should give them the crayon or a magic pencil or something. Something to remember me by! As for the other sections, I think I’ll push through with the words of wisdom thingy. But I’d rather leave them with short simple messages… The problem is… how would I ever do that?

And if I may say so myself… The relationship I have had with my CT professionally is coming to an end. I will never be his ST again. But hey, I can always be his friend. I’ve considered him one of the people I will always remember [or never forget] and I feel so blessed to have known him for such a short period of time. What I like about our relationship as CT-ST are these: we work professionally, treat each other as equals, and at the same time we help each other out. I can’t say how long it would be before we see each other again. But what I do know is this: when we see each other again, we’ll know we’re still friends.

I don’t know what I’ll give him for Christmas. I was thinking maybe a poster or a framed artwork that I’ll do of him. And perhaps a letter. I’ll give Ms. D a letter, too! And a drawing.

And yes, I know, Ms. Tiny gave each of us a colored pencil. She gave me a pink one! I feel so happy about it. But we’ll still meet her later, so I’m not really saying goodbye just yet!

I must be sick writing that title… I don’t even know why I did it! Dami kaya nangyari ngayong linggo… But I feel so happy, nonetheless! I think I don’t really have to elaborate more on what happened to me throughout the week. I repeat, I’ve never been so happier!

“Talaga?”

“Oo nga…”

“Talagang talaga?”

“Oo nga e. Ang kulit mo.”

“Talaga? Nakakakilig naman!”

“Anong nakakakilig dun?”

“Kasi dalawang kaibigan ko na ang inlove! Ang saya saya naman.”

“Sino pa ung isa?”

“Edi ung minamahal mo!”

“Nyeh!”

I recently heard “Minsan” by the Eraserheads and it sort of reminded me so much about the new friends I met during this term. It feels so good listening to it! I’ll sing it over and over again nga

Christmas is coming… So I better make this now… I’ll make it easy for this year…

1. Itchyworms Noontime Show album
2. Itchyworms Self Titled album
3. The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown
4. Confessions of a Shopaholic book 1 [This would make my collection complete]
5. Samsung Corby [Wish granted]
6. External Hard drive – 80 GB
7. a 4.0 in PRACTICUM
8. a rose from somebody close to me…
9. a Beatles tshirt
10. a new DLSU tshirt
11. to be able to buy gifts for Christmas

So far, that’s what  I want… I hope they’re easy enough to be granted…

When you’re stressed, there are a lot of things going on in your mind. Sometimes, other people are affected by your sudden change of mood, or sudden uneasiness in doing your work. Even those who are dear to you would have a hard time coping with what you’re going through right now. Of course, you should take the initiative to do something about it. But why does it seem so hard to do that? If you have more than 5 stressful things to do in your list, would that mean that your view towards life at the present may be affected?

top 3 Stress-ors…

1. AR

2. PRACTICUM

3. LITECRI & STYLIST, and KASPIL2 and TREDTRI

I only indicated 3 because apparently, these three affects my individuality in life. It penetrates through my bones and little by little, I can feel the intensity and the burning sensation of each. It hurts, of course. I try my hardest to be happy about it, but I can’t seem to. Wouldn’t that be too strange???

I don’t really know what possessed me to say that Yukito, the character from Card Captor Sakura, reminds me so much of “it”. I guess because they both have a lot in common! They’re both funny, and are such wonderful persons. And oh, they have really big appetites! I don’t know where they store most of what they eat but yeah, they eat a lot.

And well, as you may know, Yuki has feelings for somebody that you and I, who are avid fans of Sakura, would never expect! I respect his wise decision for it, but he looks so strikingly handsome and cute that I just couldn’t resist liking him so much. So much that I even identified “it” for Yuki!

Who am I kidding? They’re both great. The only problem I am thinking of is… if this is all over, would I still like “it” the way I like Yuki? I sure hope so…  (.~_~.)

Remember “it”?

I held its hand a while ago. I feel so happy today doing that.

Basta, today marks an important day for me!!!

“The more you’re willing to give, the more you’re likely to get, so go ahead and invest all you can in the person that you’re coming to care about. Take advantage of this celestial window to really bond with each other.”

I love this. I know I shouldn’t believe to much on horoscopes but this definitely makes sense!

I love this day, too! I know I shouldn’t, but yeah, “it” made me feel so good!

I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I just adore this day! I was able, for the first time in my life, laugh all day. It started at my PRACTICUM site. Oh, you know the story. I’m much too shy to say anything about that. All I can say is this: I am so happy because a lot of people made me happy today. I won’t elaborate much. When we were eating at Agno, with Wil, Mariz, Gen and Annika, we were having the time of our lives. We laughed, we cried laughing, we shouted, we ate, WE HAD FUN!

For that PRACTICUM thingy, well, I can’t really tell! I don’t want to. Let’s just say I had the most wonderful day today because I felt so happy…

… please give me one more chance to make it right, I may not make it through the night, I can’t go home without you!

It’s not over… After what I’ve heard or saw yesterday, I feel so mortified. I have this paranoia sickness that’s been killing me ever since I can remember! It is mortifying to find out something you won’t really like, and when it gets to you you’ll… just dog gone hate it! And I do, personally. I should have never let it happen, I swear. I would have had a much more wonderful time! I would have never let it go beyond what should be!!! It’s not really supposed to happen… And I don’t know why it did!!!