I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I just adore this day! I was able, for the first time in my life, laugh all day. It started at my PRACTICUM site. Oh, you know the story. I’m much too shy to say anything about that. All I can say is this: I am so happy because a lot of people made me happy today. I won’t elaborate much. When we were eating at Agno, with Wil, Mariz, Gen and Annika, we were having the time of our lives. We laughed, we cried laughing, we shouted, we ate, WE HAD FUN!

For that PRACTICUM thingy, well, I can’t really tell! I don’t want to. Let’s just say I had the most wonderful day today because I felt so happy…

… please give me one more chance to make it right, I may not make it through the night, I can’t go home without you!

It’s not over… After what I’ve heard or saw yesterday, I feel so mortified. I have this paranoia sickness that’s been killing me ever since I can remember! It is mortifying to find out something you won’t really like, and when it gets to you you’ll… just dog gone hate it! And I do, personally. I should have never let it happen, I swear. I would have had a much more wonderful time! I would have never let it go beyond what should be!!! It’s not really supposed to happen… And I don’t know why it did!!!

…ang drama naman ng nakatype sa title… Sinu kaya ang nagsabi niyan? Nakakaloka. Nakuha ko lang yan somewhere e. But I forgot. Pero… Basta, un na un!!!

This is a stressful day! But I had fun with my friends…

The LRT awhile ago went CODE RED, and that was like the second time I ever experienced that! It’s really stressful to ride a bus en route to Sta. Cruz and then aboard a jeepney en route to ESPS. It took me 30 minutes to ever get there when I can get there in less than 10 minutes through the LRT. I arrived at the school at exactly 7 50, and went up to St. Dominic’s room at exactly 8 AM, when the bell rang and the exam finally started. Whoo! So far, so good…

I skipped my TREDTRI class because I didn’t feel so good, and I had a hard time moving through the hallways of ESPS, so I decided to stay there for a while and just stay put!

The LITECRI exam made my head hurt so badly, I could scream while answering the test! But yeah, I had a great time talking/chatting with Genesis and Evil-lian [Wil-lian] while eating at Agno… And I told them this story about my students teasing me with… um, just take a wild guess and you’ll laugh, too! And be… surprised. Although, I have to admit, it’s kind of making me feel so flighty and uneasy about it. Would it have a different viewpoint if it was “him” that they’d tease instead? I don’t think so… He’d be surprised….

(Title translation: It hurts, so what can I do?)

A friend of mine suggested I write down whatever is in my mind… in this blog… and I think it feels good, knowing that somehow friends who are not really close to me suggest things that are really useful for my sake. I love my friends.

It changes, the way I feel about my friends when I know that one of them hurts my feelings, without even telling me, or subconsciously, they don’t know they’ve hurt me until they find out from me personally that they did! It can’t be helped. A friend of mine did that. She could have told me that she loved him, only she didn’t. She told me she doesn’t intend to enter into a relationship with which she knows that somewhere somehow somebody would be hurt but she did! And I don’t really know what’s wrong with me but I shouldn’t really be affected by this but I am and it hurts to think about it but I can’t help it.

But wait, there’s more! I’ve been confiding to the Lord that I’ve been thinking about this certain “thing” and that said to him I don’t want to think about “it” anymore. It’s getting out of hand! It’s a stupid “thing” to think about and I wanted to tell the Lord that I don’t want to think about “it” anymore…

Please, ayoko na. No more, please. No more…

Okay, so I just found out that there would be more than two anime and comics convention this November. I already missed so much and I want to go to one of them. I sure hope I have the time. I also want to visit CSCENTRL. They opened a new branch at Greenbelt 1 and well, you know me, I’m a Comic Alley girl and everything Anime is my interest! I sure hope I can find interesting buys there, too!

Practicum and AR is kinda rough these days. I guess the higher batches are right. It comes really tougher once the end is coming… I am enjoying [practicum] very much but it’s kinda tiring, going there every single day of your life. I’m just glad it’ll end this December!

Mela’s recovering really well, too! I’m happy to hear she has opened her eyes. But her constant movements is what scares me, and I don’t even think that would disappear tomorrow or the next day. It would have to take time for her to be really back to normal again, and I don’t really blame what happened or anything. It’s just so sad!

I am glad you’re getting better. I never saw you look so fascinating, because when I saw you a while ago, I was so happy that you look like yourself again. I feel so happy, as in! I miss you na, my dear friend. I know you’ll hang on. I know you’ll be able to gain the same spirit you had. Continue fighting, Mela! You’ll be better before you know it.

I am just imitating what the great Mitch Albom would have done to a close friend he has. If I were to write Mela, a dear friend, I’d say these things. I’ll be brief, but I’ll tell her the most important things I wanted to say, but didn’t have the guts or even the intention of telling her…

Dear Mela,

Hey! What’s up? I heard you and Genesis had a great time in Glorietta the last time you hang out. I sure wish I could have been there. Oh yeah, I almost forgot. . . I haven’t returned some of your belongings. The DVD of the Miyazaki films which you and I enjoy watching is still with me, safe and sound. And of course, your rembrants of Mr. Solapco’s HUMALIT class, the books I borrowed from you. I was so happy you lent them to me, because I would have never passed HUMALIT without them. And it saved me money from buying books I don’t really re-read, as far as re-reading is concerned. And BTW, if in case the QBB for next term would pursue, I want you still to be Teacher Mela. You did a really great job the last time we had that. And I was your TITA Principal. How cute was that?

Anyway, I still hope for the best for you, especially. Mylove is asking how you are now. If you could reply anything to me, just anything, I’d be the happiest soul in the world. Remember, Mela, that you have good friends, and that you’re very blessed to have the biggest GOLDEN heart in the world. What would your other friends and I do without you? I can’t imagine life without you! And I mean that from the very bottommost pit of the ocean heart of mine. I admire you for your strength, your kindness and your bravery. You fight for what you believe in, and a lot of people believe in you. You are the greatest person in the world that would rather help others first before helping yourself. I am confident that you’ll get better and better, because I know that Archers are fighters. We are all fighters in this world. The only difference we have is the way we combat things.

Mela, please, I beg you. Please continue fighting. Continue running the race of life. There are friends all around you that would give you water, blow you wind so you won’t get sweaty, and run beside you as if you two are going to reach the end together. We are all like that, and no matter how hard we fall, how often it may be, we have to stand and finish it! We don’t just give up. So Mela, happy thoughts to you. God Bless You always! We love you, Mela. I love you, my dearest friend…

…a not so great day, despite it being a Sunday; a CHURCH day. I found out this morning that two of my friends/ blockmates met a car accident Saturday night and well, they were in critical condition. We went to both hospitals today (San Juan de Dios for Mylove and Medical Center Manila for Mela) and saw each of them. Mylove, I am so glad, is okay now. She can talk to us, but yeah, the pain and the trauma is still in her eyes. Honestly, I admire her for being the brave soldier that she is. I’ll definitely give her something to make her feel so much better.

As for Mela. Well, she’s in the ICU. She’s conscious. But yeah, I can see how painful it is for her. Her whole body, I think, after looking at her behind that glassed walls of her ICU room, well, she’s not okay. She’s not good. She’s supported by a respirator. I don’t like the idea of her struggling. Maybe even a gentle touch of the hand makes her body ache! Oh man, this isn’t well!

I just hope they’ll be okay. I don’t want this to ruin any of my weekly plans. They’ll be good. She’ll be well. They’ll both be well!!!

Great! Just great…

I think his excellency winning this prestigious award can let millions of Democrats be filled with so much tears of joy. Yeah, sure, he won, but that’s not yet enough to be called a good president, right?

You have to have the guts to stand your grounds, strengthen your ideals and make sure these ideals can help not only your countrymen but as much as possible, the entire universe! Outside countries are included in your presidency, after all.

I was just reading some of the comments of my online friends from youtube, who are mostly Republican/Conservatives because we all love Ronald Reagan. It’s funny how these two parties, as we call it here in the Philippines, verbally oppose to each others’ idea and criticism. The other hates Reagan, or Bush, or any Republican who ran for office. Of course, the other, too, hates Obama, or Clinton, or any Democrat who ran for office. It’s a waste of time, really, but I find it really fascinating, reading both sides, getting the idea of each individual.

I like Obama, but after seeing how cold he might be now that he’s president, and what I meant by cold is how far away the United States is from the Philippines, I don’t think I like him that much anymore. Unlike when George Bush was in office, why, he talks to GMA quite often. Oh, sure, I’m a little overly dependent on the US, having it sort of grew inside of me that America is a place I should visit for pleasure and not for jobs, but it doesn’t mean that I’ve grown out of love of my own country. I am just too attached to the fact that the US is helping us, somehow. A lot hates the idea of having the US mind us all the time. I, for one, couldn’t care less.

I guess I would care so much if I’m employed. But that is yet to come.

I just noticed, right now, at exactly 12:23 AM, that this blog entry’s content has nothing to do with the Nobel Peace Prize!

But anyway, the point is this: America has their hopes set high and nothing could destroy that hope. No matter where they belong, whichever party it is, they know what they want and having it they shall!